Readings: Joshua 3:7-10a,11,13-17; Psalm 113(114); Matthew 18:21-19:1
It is often said that most of the miracles that take place at Lourdes are never recorded. This is because they are changes within people, in their hearts and minds. We are of course more conscious of things happening in the external world. Where the Red Sea divides or the waters of the Jordan pile up to allow God's people to cross over on dry ground: that seems like a proper miracle, a wonder, an amazing thing, a clear sign of God's power at work.
What about the end of apartheid in South Africa, the collapse of communism in Eastern Europe, or a peace agreement achieved in Northern Ireland? These were wonders of another kind, in our lifetime, and involving changes that it was thought we would never see. How could such things come about? How could the obstacles preventing them be dissolved or removed? How could hurt and fear of such depth, seemingly immovable objects, be dissolved and their energy transformed into a new work of justice-making and reconciliation?
Of course there were many human contributions to those events that can be studied and recorded by historians. But in each case there were moments of conversion within individual minds and hearts. People who did not trust, decided to trust. People who could not forgive, agreed to move forward with the ones they could not forgive. People who fronted their political ideas and decisions with what was less than true found the courage to face realities hitherto ignored or denied.
The parable in today's gospel reading tells of a rich man who waives the debt of a servant. But the same servant refuses to do the same for one indebted to him. What can seem reasonable, obvious, sensible, prudent, self-protecting, in one light can, in the light of a greater generosity and a deeper compassion, come to seem irrational, stubborn, vindictive, unjust, stupid. The light of grace transforms the landscape, somehow changes everything.
There are waters to be divided, tombs to be opened, links to be re-established, mountains to be shifted. Such things happening within people - opening hearts, healing wounds, letting resentments go - are also proper miracles, wonders, amazing things, clear signs of the power of God's grace at work.
We should never lose confidence in the power of that grace to do such things in human hearts and minds. Often we do not see the outcome of such miracles even when they do occur. But those who experience them know, and in their family circle and among their friends it becomes known also. To pray for the gift of conversion where it is needed is far more sensible than simply continuing to torture ourselves with whatever it is that holds us down and that we will not let go.